I crumple to the ground, warm salty tears slip over my hand as I try to stifle the sob threatening to break through my lips. I gasp as the pain threatens to overwhelm me, it radiates from the very core of me and I am barely able whisper "You do care for me don't You?". I feel like a child again for all I want is to matter. I want to know I am cared about, that He truly does love me. Though straining to hear even the slightest echo of His voice all I seem to hear is deep silence. Trembling I silently plead for Him to answer my cry. Unbidden a piece of scripture comes to mind...a promise He made to me.
Hosea 2: 19-20 "I will betroth you to Me forever; Yes I will betroth you to Me, In righteousness and justice, In lovingkindess and mercy; I will betroth you to Me in faithfulness, and you shall know the LORD"
I am reminded that He hasn't forsaken me, I am wanted and I do matter. He once before lead me to this verse to remind me in times when I feel He has forgotten me, He made a promise and it will be forever and I shall know Him. Satan may try to taunt me but God already chose me as His betrothed. God pointed me to that verse as a reminder of that promise He made that I might remember it every day.
